Im just a notch in your bedpoast...

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 21:40:31 GMT

So ive decided I neeed a new LJ name... Im sick of this one. but I will think of that later. and besides I think a couple of my friends may have found this one. very snoopy on my computer. but n e way. IVe decided on 500 cal max per day. I think thats resonable cuz I Do work out. So no more than that. and preferablly less. Im doing well for once. Im finally back to controlling my eating. I was so out of control for awhile it was an awful feeling. I Felt so worthless like I cant even control what goes in my mouth. I felt sick. Im on my way to my goal. 135 by febuary ive decided now and then 125 by april. I think its reasonable enough. well off tow ork now... write more later

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 21:23:55 GMT

hmm so ive been doing good lately. today I had a 100 cal snack pack, and a medium sized apple, and a bottle of crystal light. All in all 250. Thats all for the day. I work at 5 and I wont be getting home until about 10 so no eating will be done there. I am so determined to get down to 130 by mid-winter break and 120 by spring break. Im going to florida in feb to see my family again. and I mean last year I reached my goal why shouldnt I be able to again? right? well hoepfully. and then cali for spring break with my girls. I gotta look good or at least not completely disgusting for this one. jesse is coming and she has the most amazing body ever. im so envious its sick. I love my friends nat and tania to death too... but they arent exactly people that you get envious over. beautiful yes, but thier bodies need work. I am also getting quite sick of listening to them bitch about thier weight then go eat a large hani and cheese fries at coney. then buy a candy bar at 7-11. It makes me sick. if your going to bitch just for attention dont shove ur face full of food two seconds later. thats just my opinion. well off to work. write more later.

wow long time

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 21:41:54 GMT

woww... its been a seriously long time. I didnt have the internet for a long time due to my mom and step dad getting a divorce and us having to move. it sucked sooo bad. ive been trying to catch up on everything, but its been a long time... and I dont have the patience to go through allll the old entries of _thinspire and stuff like that. I do wanna look at all the pics though, I could use some motivating. Um nothing new really, Im at about 152 right now... but im giving myself til febuary to get down to 130 so I can go to florida and not be totally disgusting. I mean I did it last year... when I was going to florida, in november I went from like 170 to 150... so I should be able to do it again. if im really commited. I finally got a real gym membership, no more of this trying to work out and home, especially since my fat ass of a ex-step dad decided to keep the tredmil. oh eya im the ONLY one thats step foot on that thing since we got it. and im not exagerating. he weighs about 350. ITs not like hes going to use it. I hope he does, hes really nasty. well I dont have time to write much more right now.... so I will update later. and unless we move again, my internet is up. and im back! I missed everyone!!!!

lifes a bitch and so am I

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 23:54:36 GMT